I think it’s good to reflect, to look back at the past, now and again. I am amazed at how far I’ve came in so many endeavors. My family, my career, and my writings. I sometimes can’t believe I’ve lived through this incredible journey. There were a few times that I probably shouldn’t have. After it all, I’m glad I did.
I went back through my first posts here on tumblr earlier today and snickered at some of the words and some of the subjects I ran across. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m sure I’ll revisit all of this again. Anyone who writes long enough will revisit rhymes and words and ideas…some, many times over. But I hope to write them a little better next time, a little wiser and with more conviction. Hell, I may even edit and rewrite them next time. I may have the patience for that one day in the distant future…a future when kids are grown and the career is over.
I’m glad I’ve seen a change, a growth. I’m happier now. I’m older now. I’m more at peace. I’m in love. I know it’s only been a tad under 3 years on here at tumblr, but I believe this community has had a huge impact on me. I feel at home here. I have shared things and words and my heart that I would have otherwise never been able to. This place allows that more than any other I’ve been apart of. I hope you’ve seen a little growth in me as well. I can only say that if you have it’s only a small part of the growth I’ve had since my early teen years. You would not recognize me from back then. You would not like me. You may not even believe the words I wrote…although this is where the growth has been the least, believe it or not.
I look forward to looking back, reflecting on my life and my words in another forty sum years. I hope there is still growth. I hope there is still something familiar. I pray that you are all there to witness this…and if I’m very blessed, you will be.